Silence

On the coldest winter day I walk pass my uncle house with heavy heart and heavy step even my winter boots is screaming in the smallest volume, I heard they talks about me and how different I’m from them which is bad if you’re stuck in the family that stick to the value of homogeneity without any respect for any differences.

After fifteen minutes of walking I arrived at my home with a lot of pain but still I don’t know to who should I be angry for this case or who’s the one that I should blame for this pain especially when it comes from the family. This thing hurt me the most but I can’t get mad, cry, or even rant about this damn painful tragedy to my own family that should be the most secure, comfortable, and warm place or mine because the one that hurt me the most is my family then all I can do is crying and get mad in silence.

Well, not all the reason behind this tragedy is my fault but it seems like they blame me for all the mistake that can be a reason behind this tragedy which is can make my happy state turn into the most depressing December. However, all I can do is trying to get up and fight in silence.

All the things always end up with silence for me, isn’t because of people like to shut me out and not giving me a chance to speak for my own self. However, this thing happened because I have a disabilities in expressing my feeling well with comprehensive explaination in words verbally and I always get frustrated when it comes to this thing then get mad which is not good, so I decide to stay in silence till I can be totally on control also compose with my own emotion.

I hate the silence but no matter how hard I try to break the silence I always end up with failure, to be honest this silence kill me slowly with the most painful torture and excessive bleeding for my heart also my mental.

SOS, can someone help me break this silence?

-W-

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