Hello Anxiety

“Hey there, how are you?” I said to myself every morning just in case I need another check-up for my mental health and my condition either for my physical or psychological condition. Then, all I can say after that question will be “I’m fine like I always do” I say that just to make sure that I can go through my day in composure even though I’m stuck with this damn anxiety since the first day of Pandemic is exist.

Well, to be honest this damn anxiety is starting to create their colony and start the expansion within me, I’m trying to embrace and accept this condition at my best composure but still it hurt a lot. Aside from that, even though I scared and anxious about the future also everything that might be happen tomorrow all I can do is just stay quiet, praying for more strength in silent, crying, and pray for a better days while keeping myself in composure with all of the patience also power that left after all the pains and drama since I know that I’m strong enough for this storm but still no matter how much strength that I have I’m still bleeding inside.

Then, if you want to know how much the pain that I’ve got from this anxiety is just imagine yourself stabbed by a million of swords and you’re bleeding but you can’t say anything about this pain then after that you dying alone without anyone trying to save you. Aside from that, I know that I’m not alone I still have my family, my best friend, and all the people that love me unconditionally. So, hello anxiety I know you hurt me badly but I’ll make sure that I can win over you even if I need to go through a lot of bad days with no place that I can call home while weep in tears alone in my room alone. So, I hope that everything will get better without any anxiety and the thing that left here is hope, happiness, love, and gratefulness.

Last but not least, thank you for read this anxious note without any judgment it’s more than enough and I’m grateful for that.

-W-

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