Are You Happy?

Today I watch Dr. Strange and in every scene when Dr. Strange exist there is a question that always been asked to Dr. Strange that question is ‘are you happy?’ . ‘Are you happy?’ is a simple question but the answer itself is complex and complicated at the same time since happiness isn’t a thing that can be measure in objective indicator instead of that happiness is more likely to be an object with more subjective measurement. Happiness measurement is based on each standard and definition of happiness from each individuals.

However, even if we know that happiness is an object with broad concept and diverse perspective but still we stick to the same standard of happiness then lie to others also ourselves that we’re happy if they ask ‘are you happy?’ just because if we stay true to ourselves and our feeling we’ll be judge as the weak one. Sadly, I also did that to cover my sadness, depression, problem, and all my hardship. I admit is not easy but I’m grateful that I’m still alive and keep fighting in this storm even if I need to lie to myself for my own sake.

To be honest it’s hard to act like everything is fine when everything isn’t fine and out of a sudden the condition itself start to create more negative ambience in my mind with more depression, anxiety, anger, sadness, and all the bad feeling.

On the other hand, I need to survive at my best to stay sane at least for one day to keep my fighting spirit on fire. However, I’m glad that I’m still doing well within this condition and I’m grateful that I still can answer I’m happy within my hardship. Last but not least, I just want to say thank you to myself for always being there for me, protecting me, and love me for who I am in every condition.

-W-